Risk, Care, Dream, Expect, Laugh.

Every time I look at my phone I see Claude Bissell’s quote “Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible” as my screen saver. It’s not like I have chosen to make this my motto in life but I was actually born this way. I can’t help it and some may say that this is my best quality while others say I need to be more cautious and protect my heart. I let people in, I trust them, I open my heart to perfect strangers because they might just be the perfect person for me. I get lost in the moment, I decide to be all in or all out, I expect the best out of every person I let into my heart. Now, from recent experiences it becomes apparent that most people do not fulfill the high expectations and that they don’t deserve my trust. So here I am, questioning myself: Should I be more careful? What does that even mean? How does a person earn my trust? How long do I have to examine people to decide if they’re worth it or not? Is being so careful that I can’t get hurt better than trying to fly and subsequently falling down?

The answer is: I don’t know how to build up walls around my heart, I only have my soul to guide me through life, to stir me away from or towards certain people. I look at it this way: every time I let someone into my heart, it’s like exercise for it. No matter what happens, my heart will always get stronger from it, it will grow and mature. It’s getting ready for the person who actually knows how to treat it and who’s there to stay to treasure and nurture it. I won’t risk less, I won’t care less, I won’t dream less and I won’t expect less. I will stay true to myself and I will get hurt over and over again. Pain is an organic part of life and I will take it as an opportunity to grow every time I feel it. And when it’s all said and done, it’s always kind of a funny story. Laugh at me or laugh with me but laugh.

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12 Responses to Risk, Care, Dream, Expect, Laugh.

  1. I believe you have the right mindset Kat, the world needs people like you. Any matters of the heart we will not get it perfect but we do become stronger from any incident that happens. I truly believe that people who run into kindness and don’t know how to handle it are the ones that lose out. And honestly, how I see it, you cannot blame them. Society has messed up a lot of people thinkings and they don’t know good when they see it.

    • Thanks, Tasha. I hear what you’re saying about Society messing up a lot of people… That’s we (the ones that haven’t been messed up) have to stay compassionate and spread the love 🙂

  2. charles963 says:

    Hi Katja,

    Thank you. I have been reading your posts for the past six months and I have found them entertaining and original. As someone who lived in Manhattan for years but who has been lucky enough for the past decade not only to virtually travel (as you have so interestingly conveyed this summer) but also constantly traveling to places like East Asia, Central Asia, West Africa, Australia, South America, I have appreciated your thoughtfulness and perspective. I write because it seems like an appropriate time to add a few thoughts to your most recent blog.

    So after that somewhat lengthy preamble: Risk, Care, Dream, Expect and Laugh. To this I would add: Decentralize (let go), Include, Express, Give and Laugh (again). And who cares what some else thinks.

    Most people will never fill the expectations or even aspire to reach the heights of great perspective, great inclusivity and great compassion. This is a journey for the few and only comes after many small and often steps, much forgiveness in all its forms, and great disappointment—which is why laughter is so important

    But you know this. I am sure that I not telling you anything new. Particularly someone who is virtually traveling the world, and writing a blog with great heart called Living Large. How else does the lesser burst into the larger, piercing the fog and reflecting that which is Greater? This is the story of the Soul of which you write so eloquently.

    • Hi Charles,

      thank you so much for the compliments and more so for sharing your thoughts! I do hope that I will physically get to go to some more of the places that I “travel” in this blog. The virtual journey shall continue as soon as this semester slows down a bit and the physical journey will probably have to wait until next May after graduation.

      Thanks again and stay tuned ;-),

      Katja

      • charles963 says:

        Hi Katja,

        What a great way to prepare for the physical journey—healing the body (I read your blog about your serious injury–very challenging) and engaging the mind (the virtual trips). I am sure you will get to those places and more! I would be happy to share some of the places I have visited, which tend to be off the beaten track. I also hope your semester ends successfully. And I will definitely stay tuned!

        Best Wishes,

        Charles

      • Hi Charles,

        places off the beaten track sound incredibly intriguing 🙂
        As far as the semester goes… it will end successfully, the question is if I will keep my sanity…

        Best wishes to you, where ever you are on this planet!

        Katja

  3. Thisboysmind says:

    “What a silly thing Love is,” said the Student as he walked away. “It is not half as useful as Logic, for it does not prove anything, and it is always telling one of things that are not going to happen, and making one believe things that are not true. In fact, it is quite unpractical, and, as in this age to be practical is everything, I shall go back to Philosophy and study Metaphysics.”

    ———————————————————————————————————————————
    Hey there,

    Sorry you’ve had some bad experience with perfect strangers, ever think about giving imperfect strangers a chance? 🙂

    • Hi there!

      Metaphysics do seem much less complicated than love…
      And to answer your question: I don’t necessarily discriminate against imperfect strangers 😉

      And thank you for the song. What do you know about Wir Sind Helden???

      Good to hear from you!

      • Thisboysmind says:

        Hallöchen!

        Been a fan of Wir Sind Helden ever since I heard Denkmal for the first time.
        If I had to sum them up, I would say they make Intelligent and finely crafted pop music, all their albums are very good although the quality of the individual songs can vary considerably.

        Bring mich nach Hause is one of their best songs, the lyrics, music and vocals combine to create a haunted and exposed feeling that’s brutally honest and full of longing.
        Or maybe it’s just me…

        Imperfect stranger is a bit of a mouthful.
        Imp will do just fine 🙂

        Impishly yours.

      • Hallo,

        so you do speak German? Either this fact escaped my mind or I wasn’t aware of it… Denkmal is a great song.
        And someone should add Imp to the dictionary!

        How is your blogging experience going?

  4. charles963 says:

    Hi Katja,
    Thank you!
    In London, about to head to Central Asia in a few days.
    Hang in there!
    Charles

  5. Thisboysmind says:

    Moin,

    To be honest, I am deeply ashamed at the state of my German skills.
    Der die das macht kein spaß.
    Ich habe immer Angst Fehler zu machen und das schadet leider meine (Aktive) Deutschkenntnisse sehr…
    Wenn sie die Helden mögen, kann ich als Geheimtipp Erdmöbel empfehlen, einfach geniale Popmusik.

    Not sure if you know this, but Imp is already in the dictionary, it’s a small and sometimes mischievous demon.
    This short story was one of the only reading assignments I enjoyed during English class.
    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bottle_Imp

    As for blogging, I wrote you a reply in your Hungarian blog entry a few months back.
    https://katjalivinglarge.wordpress.com/2012/07/22/around-the-world-in-67-blog-posts-stop-13-magyarorszag/
    Not much has changed since, still too few readers for my liking, sucks.
    At least my article ’10 reasons why expensive restaurants serve tiny portions’ is pretty high on Google’s search results.
    Still, I will soldier on.

    CU!

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