Warning: This is a self-therapy post, so if you’re busy enough with your own therapy sessions, do not read this…
Before I begin with my amateur philosophy, let me tell you that I’ve been running on empty for the last couple of weeks. It just kinda crept up on me – “all of a sudden” there was nothing left in the tank. I went from energizer bunny to being constantly tired and from Miss Positive to complaining that I’m tired all the time. At first I didn’t understand it, didn’t know why I have no motivation, no drive, no fun. All that is not like myself, it’s someone I don’t know. But it can really be easily explained. Starting in April 2011, I went from hero to zero, then to 0.5 – From working out twice a day as a pro baller to not being able to walk for five months to spending 12 hours a day sitting at some desk. That alone should be enough to knock me off my feet. On top of that I recently changed my environment completely, going from a 9 million mega city to a 10,000 souls small town, from being an independent new yorker to spending a 3 month vacation at hotel Mom. I lost the last bit of muscles that I had, I feel flabby, my skin looks like I’m going through puberty all over again.
Ok, so now you may understand why this self-therapy session was necessary. All that stuff I just talked about happens. Shit happens. But here are the good news: every pile of shit can be cleaned up. And my pile really isn’t that big. It’s up to me to scoop it up and wipe the floor. It’s up to me to make time to work out, it’s up to me to eat well, to laugh, to be thankful. I have the choice to replace a negative thought with a positive thought. Let me give you some examples:
Thought A: I miss my life as a basketball “star”. This shit sucks!
Thought B: I’m lucky that basketball took me around the world and led me to most of the people and things that are most valuable to me. Life is good.
Thought A: I’m flabby. I don’t have energy to work out. My biceps is gone.
Thought B: Let me get up and do some yoga, it only takes 30 minutes.
Thought A: I hate being financially dependent on my parents!
Thought B: I’m so happy that I still have both my parents.
Thought A: I miss New York!!!
Thought B: It’s so good to get some fresh country air!
I could go on forever but I think you got the drift. It’s so easy to feel powerless, to worry and to complain about what’s wrong with our lives. But it’s even easier to be powerful, to choose, to do something good for yourself every day, to be grateful. Life is not a punishment, it’s a gift. It’s beautiful and the ups and downs keep it interesting. Shit happens but we have the choice to clean it up right away so that the pile won’t get too big.